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Tuesday, November 3, 2009
How i feel now.
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Attitude.
I detest my attitude, towards you you you. I'm sorry, to do all these, i know bro, you don't mind but, i'm seriously not in a mood, i don't know why i just couldn't control my emotions, just unable to take control of my mood, while it's taking control of me. I'm sorry. I hate it this way, cos' i don't know what i was thinking too.
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Pessimistic.
I know i took things for granted, i know well i took it too seriously. When many doubts are arousing you, you would feel pressurize. That's what i'm feeling now, that's why i couldn't stop thinking everytime when something pops out. Sometimes, it's not that i didn't try to let go, it's not that i didn't put in enough effort, it's mainly because i'm in a dull situation, a low position to make harsh and decisions that i don't wanna make. Life is beautiful, when you are happy. But it really suck to the core when you are upset. How i wish, life for me could pause at happy moments, only.
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So much to say, but i don't know how should i put it into words.
No one could understand the other. Cos' you're not in the situation, you're not the person, what's more? You don't even share the same characteristics of that person. Obviously, i do admit i don't understand my friends. That's why i felt so helpless and useless whenever they are down.
But, no one really did understand me fully, fully. No one could. Even my dearest friends. Whenever they don't understand me, especially when things don't go my way, yes that way, then i would start swearing this and that. I'm so stupid, i'm so silly. How should i put all these into words? No one could understand, but whenever i say something like "leave me alone" to some of my friends, i really don't wish they would leave me alone. I wish they get the real meaning deep down in my heart.
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Your sweet talks.
It suck. I really took it to heart, your words it really melted my heart. You never fail to make me happy, but you too, never fail to make me upset. Your unawareness. You knew very well, that i wanted you, but you, just kept giving me false hopes. You know it kills too but why, bringing so much to me, not for once, but twice thrice..
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Your problems.
I wish to know everything 'bout you. I don't wanna be the last to know, cos' i wanna prepare before the worse comes. Will you ever know, all these while, i've been guessing i've been thinking what is really going on? It's like turning off and on. Awhile we would say Ily. Awhile later, it'll change. Never been in my shoes, so you didn't know how to express it. It's a bliss that someone likes you. But it is never a bliss, to give false hopes, letting that someone to hang onto a cliff, onto a rope that is almost tearing apart.
I know i think too much, but it's the fact. I know you wouldn't like me, face the reality. Laughs.
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It's true.
Advices are what we crave for when we knew the answer but we wish we didn't.
I hold on to memories, cos' it will never change.
(Quoted from a blog).
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